kdkd07's Journal

12:42pm: So I stayed home from school today for no particular reason.
I woke up at 7:30, and at 8 I went grocery shopping with my mom.
Now im eating everything we bought :]
Im bored, and Im babysitting..I should be well on my way to Jons
right now..but...im just not.
I guess im going later.
And I have a track meeting today I should be going too, but ive decided to miss that too.
Because I just dont feel like going. ill just tell the coaches i was too "sick"

Yea, well yesterday was valentines day.
And it started off real bad.
I woke up, to find my rat, dead.
so I cried, then I wrapped him up.
Then it was school time...and Jon wasnt there because of his ankle.
So after school I got off the bus at nicoles to pick something up.
Then I went to Jons.
I was there pretty much the rest of the day. And we had ourselves some fun.
And I cleaned up his room, and introduced sunlight into it. :]

So, I feel pretty much disgutsting and dirty and Im
in need of a good long shower. But im too lazy.
and its past 12:30 and im supposed to be at Jons now...but
my moms not home, and isnt answering her phone..
and Im stuck.

9:53pm: Im sick of gay kids.
& friends that smoke pot, just because they can.


these are the times when I love my mom for being strict.

10:13pm: So..school was alright today..
Then Jon came home with me and we hit up the mall.
Then......BAND CONCERT.
It was great...me, Jon and Lauren all get there about an hour and a half too early,
and that whole time we hung out and took some pictures.
Then shirley showed up and sat with Jon while we played and cracked up on stage.
then, krissie showed up, and we all ran around, & us banders were supposed
to stay and watch....but, that never happened.
So, we went up into this little secluded room up some dark stairs, and watched the
concert from holes in the ceiling..
it was grand.
Then lauren and nicole left, and me and jon hung out because
shirley and krissie were running around some more.
Then shirleys mom brought us home.

ahh, yes. :]

12:06am: fricken
so Today I worked a hearty 6 hours...and it sucked..it always sucks to go to Tops if you work in that craphole. So yes..i get home only to find im home alone..and I give my good friend eryn a call at around 9:15, she comes over and then its off to tops for us [again i go there]..when on our way, i drop my phone and it falls apart a total of ... 6 times. Yes, and I lost my bonus card on the road..so we get in tops, and dont know what to get...and we decided to get baking things..we bought frosting, craisins, cake, cookies, and muffins...and now, were baking like wildmen...now..were sitting here, watching mad-tv...looking at the cookies I ruined, and calling phone dating services, because...were just cool like thattttttt.

10:59pm: Fricken it seems like years since i've written anything in this thing..& Im bored..so whatever.
But today was just..bad.

first, school...which I go to tired, cranky and the whole day was just boring.
Then I get home, my mom takes me to Jons, and I was only there for about an
hour and a half and we basically watched cartoons and ate candy..I <3 him. :]
So, I get home at around 5:45 and have been babysitting since..
My fridays always turn out to be crap anyways.
and then the rest of the weekend I work..so its not like I have much of a weekend anyways.
2-8 tomorrow...6 hours, and me and nicole have decided to find new jobs
and quite Tops...because it sucks...so bad.
Well, tomorrow me shirley and nicole were supposed to hang out with Kate Mandi and Tiff...
which for some reason I dont think is happenning anymore..so, ill go to work tomorrow,
and then do nothing...then go to work on sunday, and do nothing..
then its back to school.

God, I need to get rid of this job now.

6:21pm: ahhhh
Im so bored...so I did this survey for your enjoyment!! :)

i'm bored, ur bored...survey!! el yay!!
basic stuff that u gotta have in a survey
name:	Kadi Barnes :)
birthday:	February 7th
age:	16
status...single? taken?:	single
just a bunch of random stuff
do u like taco bell?:	Ohh yesss
whats your all time favorite song?:	dont have one.....
can you speak spanish?:	I can count to ten
do you like cheese?:	eewwww....hate it
what about cheesecake??:	no way
where were u born?:	new york
still live there?:	yessir
what size shoe do u wear?:	6 1/2
wheres the last place u went on vacation:	Seattle
who's ur best friend? do you even have one?:	I have more than one
which show is better: dora the explorer, or bob the builder???:	neither...Old fashion sesame street is the way to go
have u ever had an imaginary friend? if so, do u still have one??:	I had an imaginary ostrich once
have any brothers? sisters?? how many?:	four brothers, one sister
do u like the movie aladdin?:	Thats my favorite disney movie!!!`
have u ever eaten cat food? if so was it the kind from the can, or dry ??:	Dry cat food is not tasty...
wut is the last thing you ate?:	dinner
go to google.com.type in ur name.wuts the first thing that comes up?:	A recipe from India
do u like where u live? if not, where would u rather live?:	I love where i live
where was the last place u went on vacation?:	umm..seattle, i already said that
wut if u owned nothing but a can of beans and the clothes on ur back??:	I'd eat the beans and wear the clothes//
name a song that u know all the words to by heart?:	oh, theres so many...
teletubbies or boohbah??:	both of those shows are demonic
hamburgers or hotdogs?:	hamburgers
hot pink or lime green?:	bothh
do u or have u ever had a dog?:	I have two dogs
if so, wut is its name? if not, what would u name it if u had one?:	Rocky and ryka ( no more bear )
wut kind of shoes did u wear today?:	Converse and my mommys boots
have u ever snuck out of ur house?:	yess yes
if so how many times?? if no, then why not??:	oh lord...too many times over summer :)
do u or or would u ever smoke weed??:	never have never will
wut is ur favorite color?:	pink and black
wut is ur all time favorite disney movie?:	aladdin!!!
what is the scariest movie you've ever seen?:	ummm, dunno, i like getting scared!
why was it so scary?:	i said i didnt know
do you have aids?:	sweet lord NO
do you like pop tarts?:	ohhh yessss
if no, why not??:	i do
wut is your favorite microwaveable food?:	oatmeal and frozen dinners
do u like to bake?:	i like to TRY and bake
have you ever lit anything unusual on fire?:	my eyelash, while trying to sniff a candle
do you have a pool in your back yard?:	yupp
wut is one of the craziest things you've ever done??:	streaking
wut were u for halloween last year??:	uh...army guy
ever done something u knew u shouldnt have done but u did it anyway???:	umm, like everyday
wut was it??:	come on now..lets see. Lets just say Ive been to the office a few times in my day
ever lied to ur parents about what u did last nite?:	yess
wut is your favorite fast food restaraunt?:	taco bell or subway
wut was the name of ur 4th grade teacher?:	Mrs. Touchette
do u like any shows or movies on the disney channel?:	not really
if so, which ones?:	...
ever gotten really drunk and done sumthin really really stupid??:	got drunk and did stupid things, but nothing I terribly regret
what was it??????:	///
wut is your favorite sport to play?:	track and cross country
watched sesame street lately??:	not lately, but have so many timess
if you had to be on a reality show, which one would it be?:	the truman show!! only it would be the kadi show!
do you like to go tp'ing??:	haha..fricken I love it
egging??:	with natalie...oh yess
are you getting tired of this survey?:	no, im bored
cuz i am.:	your gay
so last question: what time is it?:	6:19 pm
Take this survey | Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

9:54pm: wow
Now...who seriously wants to hear about
what I did today? Nobody...thats who...I dont even
want to reminisce on my own day. So, I guess I'll
just babble on...atleast its more entertaining than
"i went to school, and talked to fags and came home"
so...yupp.

Blah blah blah...
I wonder what I would look like if I was bald..haha weird.
You know what I thought of today? Nicole's old boyfriend
from 7th grade...I dont know his name, but he's spanish and has
a mustache..and he gave her a stuffed animal for some special occasion.
hah he was a freaky fellow.
[HO HUM PIGS BUM]-->what did i just say?!
I want to go to England...ooh yipppee..that would be fun.
And huess what..
4 MONTHS UNTIL THE BAND TRIP TO WASHINGTON, D.C.
now, ive been to d.c. many many times...but, this is going
to be ten times better than all of those trips because its a band trip
with lauren and nicole...and we get a hotel, and were going on a little
7:30-10 night cruise...and a baseball game..and EVERYTHING!
yeahh, so...im counting down the days.
I havent worked in so long...and i love it...and i get
paid tomorrow. sweet..
hmmm, why do people say "sweet?"
like...
"yo dude...i passed my test"
-"sweet dude"
___hmmm, I guess i just dont get some things
haha take this for instance...slang words that end in
"izzle" Im telling you, as dumb as it sounds, I say that
all the time..
Ill just be like..."turn on the lizzle" or
"lets go to my hizzle nicol-izzle"
yeahh, so...Im pretty gangster...or should I say...gangstA
yeah thats right...I got the SWEET moves fo shIZZLE.


You know what I hate....
that feeling when you want what you can't have.
I hate that feeling, and im having it right now.

WOW....my moms making me get off...
of course...but, whateverr!!

nighty night foos! =)

7:51pm: This is why I want to choke myself sometimes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yeah, that was all last night...at mine and nicoles houses.   Haha, we really are fags

 

7:07pm: okay
wow, I totally blew 155 dollars today at the mall :/
And some of the items I bought consisted of light bulb christmas earrings that blink
for ten dollars, and a picture with santa for 12 dollars.
Oh well, those were probably my favorite things I spent my money on :)
well, while I was at the mall
I passed by the wig store, and it reminded me of over the summer
when me and nicole went in there to look for banquet stuff
and we ended up trying on all these 150 dollar wigs
and this man that worked there was going crazy
[ man ] - "wow, that wig suits you wonderfully"
[ nicole ]- "really?"
[ Kadi ]- "hah definatly not"

and this guy referred us to some wig clinic in downtown buffalo
ohh good lord, we ran out of there, literally running
as I just about peed my pants...
Ah the memories!

well, i think I work tomorrow from 4:30-8:30
but im only 50 % sure...uh oh..
I hope I dont work earlier than that..
hhmmm, maybe I should call ?
I think that would be wise


goodnight then!

8:18pm: mmmmm....yup
Worse day today..
kept getting in trouble because all of my teachers thought I was sleeping
or not paying attention.
When really, I was crying.
Yesterday was the worst day of my life.
I went to the hospital to visit my uncle
who has cancer, or should I say, HAD cancer.
And it was the scariest thing ive ever seen before.
I didnt know what to do or say so I just stood there and cried.
I thought id be okay once i heard he wasnt going to make it,
but i wasnt okay it all once it was "official" that he died.
It just hit me on how bad things can get sometimes.
I never EVER would have thought he would die so soon.
He's not going to be around ever again.
And it just hits me every once in awhile.
At school, I cried alot,
and at work, on my break, i was crying.
And im about to cry right now because Ive never
been in a situation like this...
and I dont know how to handle it.
((but shirley did a good job of cheering me up :) >>

.....

10:23pm: what the hay
Well, i got bored.. so ive decided to write again.
its only been a couple of days anyhow.
well, all i have to say is
I LOVE SCHOOL !!!
And I especially love being a band geek.
And I love the bus ride at the end of the day.
And I love english with shirley.
And lunch with nicole.

On Friday, me & nicole work and get out at 9:30
so, I think me, nicole, shirley, lauren and maybe natalie
are all hanging 10.
yepp..
I think were going out to eat somewhere, and it works out nicely
as im going to get paid thursday..
ooh how i love thursdays!



I love christmas!
oooo, and today...me and nicole and monsieur Palumbo were
chatting about snow and sledding and snowboarding.
and i cant WAIT!
it made me think of last year, when nicole just about broke my leg
trying to rescue me.
and the year before that when I accidentally
made nicole fall through thin ice. =)
it was so good.
oh hah..
goodnight thenn! <3

5:59pm: ..
I hate livejournal

so im done using it
for a while..

9:54am: HOT DOG!!
YES!
wow, I stayed home from school wednesday
then Iwas all ready for school thursday...so i set my alram and it doesnt go off.
damn my clock. So i went in late but I had the best day yesterday.
heres why.
- school was simply amazing yesterday!!
- work went by good, no customers yelling at me =)
- On my break, I got my first paycheck!! yippee!!
- Then I got off at about, 9:15, then went home, and Eryn came over.
- we made cookies...but they basically sucked.
- Then, she slept over!

Now today, Im going to the mall to blow my money!
Im an idiot, but, I actually HAVE money..so
I better enjoy it while I can :)

HAVE A SPLENDID DAY!

2:04pm: ALONE and BORED !!
Last night at work was okay..
except for a lady yelling at me
because SHE mad a mistake.
I almost cried, I wasnt upset, but I hate when people yell at me :(
Im a baby.
But Nicole was bagging for me so that was nice :)
Then, this morning I tried to get up and open my eyes
but my eyes stayed shut and I fell back down on my bed.
So, I woke up my brother and went back to bed and didnt get up until 10.
Oh it was nice.
But for some reason I was excited for school and I hate being here
so bored, and its raining and its been raining all day.
I love thunderstorms, but I only like them at night..
during the day their just...gay.

bye

2:02pm: I LOVE WORK
I LOVE MY FRIENDS
I LOVE FOOTBALL
I LOVE MARKERS
I LOVE FOOD
I LOVE THE NIAGARA FALLS
I DONT LOVE GAMBLING
I LOVE TAKING PICTURES
I LOVE MY DOGS
I LOVE SCHOOL
I LOVE OLD MEN WITH HAIRPIECES...I DONT LOVE COMB OVERS ;)
I LIKE HIM...
I LOVED TODAY [so far]
I LOVE TORNADO WATCHES!!
I WANT A HAMBURGER
I LOVE TAKING WALKS TO THE STOP SIGNS WITH ERYN AND BRIGET
I LOVE WINTER AND I LOVE SNOW AND SLEDDING AND CHRISTMAS AND CHRISTMAS MUSIC AND SANTA CLAUSE AND REINDEER AND COOKIES AND MILK AND FIREPLACES AND CHRISTMAS TREES AND PRETTY LIGHTS AND GIFT-WRAPPING AND HOT CHOCOLATE AND GINGERBREAD HOUSES.
I LOVE OLD MOVIES (really old ... 30's movies)
I HATE BOYS
I HATE BOYS
I LOVE BOYS
I HATE BOYS
IM SO HUNGRY RIGHT NOW
NICOLE AND SHIRLEY ARE COMING OVER SOON
I LOVE THE SOUND OF FAST WIND, AND THUNDER
I LOVE ALOT OF STARS AT NIGHT
I LOVE SEATTLE
I DONT LOVE LIVEJOURNAL
I LOVE SCARY MOVIES
I LOVE FUNNY FAGS AT SCHOOL
I LOVE HOW CROSS COUNTRY IS OVER*
I HATE HOW CROSS COUNTRY IS OVER**
I LOVE TRACK
I HATE THAT MY KNEE IS INJURED...MEANING TRACK IS JUST ABOUT GOING TO SUCK.
I CANT STAND CLINGINESS
SPEAKERS ARE A NICE INVENTION
IM GOING TO EAT NOW
BYE

11:34am: Well, my week has been surprisingly good..
and busy.
Cross country is now over!! yesterday was sectionals and I got to miss school for it! woo hoo!
But for some reason I was a nervous wreck, and I am NEVER nervous about cross country meets.
So that pretty much sucked. My dad was there, so he took me out to eat
and then I met up with my mom and brother at the barbershop.
Then, from 5:30 to 9:30 I had work...thw whole time I was practicing
on the cash register, it was so boring.
And thw whole time I felt so sick, and I dont feel much better today..
at all..
Now Im babysitting, and then I have work from 3-8.
And I really do not feel like going at all.
But I have to, so I guess thats it then.

6:07pm: ah, the breakup
Well, Today was pretty upsetting.
I broke up with Jeff.
And I felt terrible the whole entire day,
and I will say I shed a few tears.
But you know what? It wasnt fair
to him. I couldnt just keep going out with him
when I didnt have the same feelings as he did.
So I hope everythihng works out for the both of us.

eh, I feel so guilty

6:33pm: This sucks
I was all ready and excited for halloween.
Me and briget get all "armied" up and get lauren and go out with
some of the boys.
Then we met up with eryn and jessica and jeff.
And then, the night pretty much goes downhill from there.
I felt sick, eryn for some reason was ignoring me the whole time, and on top of all that...jeff.
I dont even know what to say.
I get so mad at him, and I know I shouldnt but sometimes I cant help it.
And it makes me so mad that he always ASKS and ASKS and ASKS about whats wrong with me.
And I wanna tell him so bad, but I say things the wrong way, and he'll take it the wrong way.
So, Eryn is at her grandmas with jessica, and briget is with lauren
and Im stuck here, alone, bored, upset, and wanting to kill someone.
Eryns calling me when she gets home from her grandmas, then were
all going out...hopefully something good come out of it. :/

2:25pm: First day of work today...9-1
It was pretty boring in the beginning because all I did was take a training
course on the computer, but then the computer froze and wouldnt work so I got
to go and do bagging for like 2 and a half hours. It was fun. And, fricken Joe
Wallace was working right next to me...if you were on softball, you know who Im
talking about. He actually wasnt mean though...he was pretty nice, but maybe because
today he wasnt the boss..In the summer during softball, he was the ump so he got to
yell at me all he wanted..what a fool.
And flipping Halloween is tomorrow. MMMMMMMM yesssss.
Im excited, so damn excited.
Me and briget are wearing army pants, and army jackets
and bandanas and face paint. Ahhh, I can just see it now
Me and briget running around with the rest of the neighborhood
cool cats, and then eryn lagging behind as an eskimo.
Hah, a fricken eskimo...thats just her cheap excuse to not be anything
and just wear a nice big coat...loser.
Anyways, Im definatly pillow-casing it up tomorrow.
Oh yes..candy galore. Im like a little kid, but I
LOVE CANDY AND I LOVE HALLOWEEN.

6:46am: crap nipples
I set my alarm for 7:30
My alram goes off at 7:30
I come downstairs only to find, that it was really 6:30
Damn daylight savings.
Now Im awake an hour earlier, with nothing to do.
I have to go to work at 9 and I get out at 1 today.
So, i decided to write...but, I havent had a day yet.

So, me and briget have decided we're being army guys for halloween.



have a hopping good day :)

7:41pm: Things
--I am in a group of four people called "the lurklings"
--I just went pee, and it is the BEST feeling in the world
--I found a dollar on Nicole's street yesterday
--Im not "math stupid" this year
--I love boys <3
--My cross country shoes smell SO BAD. and Im getting new ones on Tuesday
--I start work tomorrow
--All Hallows eve is approaching soon!
--I just found, Im quite the golf player
--Im either going to die of ink poisoning, or bird attack..if you wish to know the reasons why I will die from either of these "unfortunalities"...ask and I will be pleased to respond to your demands :)
--I fricken love eryn
--"Zippo, Miss pale it all, and coat-hanger" ....enough said [ahem, shirl girl]
--Fricken Hindle.."Omg, Im so cool at church school but im a loser at regular school" and " Oh come on. I am not a virgin, whatever" ....I cant take that girl!!
--My brother went to a halloween party last night infested with transgendered men...it was super hero homos GALORE!!
--mud mud mud mud mud...the most fun substance on EARTH.
--Gary, sherry, and carrie poppins...the cross country faggots ( aka, me, natalie and pittman )
--I choked on a beebee gun pellet today..it hurt
--As I said before, peeing is the best feeling in the world.
--Women naked on tv need to get out of here...now
--Pat Russell is from lockport...pat russell is the best runner in the league. Pat Russell was at my meet today. Pat Russell is the hottest runner i have EVER seen. Im sorry to say, I cheered for him instead of my own team :)
--Last year I carved alcohol of every kind in my pumpkin...now I need to figure out what im going to do this year...so someone, give me a suggestion.
--Grandma's are the best people that will EVER exist. atleast, mine are.
--goodbye.

9:49pm: yepp
Today was actually pretty fun.
I had a good day at school, and had an even better
practice. Our practice was at the resevoir and the whole
time, all we had to do was play tag. OOh, it was fun,
except for when I was dragged into a field of pricklers
by an overly competitive partner haha But we did go mudsliding
in an abandoned baseball diamond :) which was awesome.

Then, got home and played hide and go seek with my little brother.
Then, out of doors with eryn. Wow, we do the dumbest crap
I have ever heard of. Its so stupid, but we have so much fun.
-spying
-running away from people
-Hiding from people
-Eating things off the road
-trying to make it back home in time
-sitting in our special driveway spot
-Talking to lovely passer-by's

mmmm,it sounds kinda a freaky when I write it
I guess you just have to be there.
Me and eryn = the best!! :)

Im babysitting again tonight, and Im feeling so sick to my stomach
right now. Ive been like this for the past three days...I hope Im not
getting the flu or sumthing...that would = ultimate suckiness.. ;0

8:46pm: MMmKay
Im annoyed
Im confused
According to Jeff, I've been having "mood swings" lately

If I was 65 years old, I could say it was menopause.
But Im sadly many years away from using that excuse. :)

--So can someone tell me why everything feels out of place right now?--

Maybe Im not used to these changes in feelings.
Or maybe the problem is...
some old feelings never really changed at all :/

6:20pm: Yesterday, boring orientation at Tops..I fricken watched a movie
for 2 and a half hours, and it was mostly about how to bag correctly.
Umm, no. But then, me and jeff went to the movies
and saw the exorcism of emily rose..
good ficken god, I was scared out of my mind..
I wouldnt even go to the bathroom. :0

Today was nice I guess.
Except I almost got really sick at practice. :(
But then after, me and jeff went to timmy hoes!
mmmm, so good.
So Im sitting here, and just thinking about all of these things..
I mean weird/gay/funny/crazy things that happen to me and my friends..
(mainly nicole and shirley)

I remember one time, me and nicole went to the movies with her sister and her friends,
I dont remember what we saw though...we went and saw mr and mrs smith.
And laughed and were gay the whole time.
Then after the movie, we saw these two little boys jump the rope and run into a movie..so, we thought we were all cool and went and followed them to see what they were up too, and they sat down. so we went and told on them..and the lady was like "oh, thats fine...its the owners grandchildren" haha it was embarrassing.
Then I was thinking about that stinking softball banquet.
when we went as hobos. Oh my god, we looked like idiots.
And trick or treating in lasalle and weird little boy following us trying to be our friend.
And for shirleys surprise birthday gift, the FUN CENTER! and it was closed once we got there so we were abandoned in niagara falls for like 45 minutes and decided to go to an abandoned mall, and a creepy man followed us there too.
Then in the summer when we would go and hang out with the fag boys of the year around tops and M.R.S.

and apple baseball, and snowball tag, and marco polo all in the rite-aid parking lot.
And jumping on old mattresses outside of scott furniture store.
And that dumb scavenger hunt that didnt work out at all for almost everyone involved.
and stinking mine and gabrielsons little...whatever it was..haha dang that was weird.
Then the parties, and running around brians yard, and hiding in his storage closet.

Oh man, Im going to remember more memories soon enough
and Ill have to rewrite them later.

Goodbye :)

10:20pm: You know what?
I've just about had all that I can take.

So would you kindly...SHUT UP !!!!!!